I'm going to yoga tonight. My mind is so noisy I've kind of lost my appetite. Sometimes something happens that is so ordinary yet so significant it just takes some time to process. And so I'm going to practice the moment, being in it, concentrating on it to the exclusion of everything else. I am going to breathe deeply and exhale obnoxiously. I am going to quiet this monkey mind. And sometime soon maybe I'll try to find the words for the way I want to understand how this girl makes choices. I think everyone experiences a sharp break with the person they normally are at least once in their life. That happened this weekend and while it was something many people don't think twice about, it was different for me and thus kind of unsettling and strange. It's not guilt as much as it feels like I'm considering something I can't define. Or something that seems to fit someone else.
Oh, and it looks like my sister is coming to live with me.
Life bunches up doesn't it?
2 comments:
It all sounds very exciting! I hope yoga did the trick for you (love the term 'monkey mind' btw).
Life does indeed bunch up. Big changes always seem to come in the springtime for me--maybe that's universal?
yoga is wonderful. i hope it brings you lots of calm.
is your sister living with you a positive thing? i like it when people live with me!
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