Okay, I know this drug is working me over right now but hear me out. I've never met a truly meek person. That's probably why the actual meek will inherit the earth. The poser-meek, people who get their feelings hurt over and over again because they front meek, are discounted and then feel miffed that no one is interested in mining their potential awesomeness, well the title of this post clearly states my position.
I despise weakness, which is not to be mistaken for a lack of ability. I sympathize, empathize with inability. I'm particularly annoyed right now with weakness of conviction, and a lack of self-preservation that is borderline immolation. I think we all visit that place, where it's easier to give yourself over to something than it is to evaluate whether you are getting anything from it, but I grow tired of listening to anyone, including myself, who dwells, you know, puts up curtains and buys comfortable furniture, in self-defeating foolishness. I grow tired of offering a shoulder so one can lament their self-cemented place in life. And if the source of the angst is a job, and you keep offering your nuts up to be kicked, I have zero sympathy and if I love you, I'm really pissed at you. And if you cry, I'm sad for you because now you are that person who cries at work.
Why am I sad? Because you wouldn't be crying or sad if you really believed you sucked. You know you have value and inherent awesomeness but when its not validated, you doubt yourself and then inherit the often presumed opinion of people you usually don't even like or respect. I don't know why but certain people reflexively abuse that kind of personality. And those who don't abuse it, will take advantage of it. Not so much for what they are willing to give (though that's nice too) but because of some other reason I can't quite put my finger on. Maybe a person who doesn't acknowledge they have worth makes other people feel better, like they have a touchstone for at least one person they know they are better than.
I despise people not sticking up for themselves, who care more about people liking them than about representing any part of their interests, nevermind their best ones. Whose default compromise is themselves. That makes me crazy. You can never be sure of where you stand with a person like that because they want to know how you feel before they can register their opinion or preference. Pull the thread and one can doubt if a person like that even wants to be your friend, so adept they are at molding to other people's preferences. We all take one for the team but they take almost every. single. one. for the team. Then they shudder under the pressure of expectation once the team expects them to keep taking it all and ironically convince themselves that no one takes one better. It's disgusting. It's destructive. It's annoying.
Seriously, this allergy medication releases the haterade. I need to taper off.
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