BS Theater

Ever been at the dentist, tipped back, dental bib and spit-splatter shades on, light in your eyes and suddenly found your feet in stirrups and heard a speculum being prepped? Of course not, you're at the fucking dentist, where they do dental exams. Your dentist shouldn't even be able to pick a speculum out of a line-up. So why during my language exam was I asked about my ancestry and animal rights? What the really-OMFG-fuck? What do either of those things have to do with U.S. foreign policy, the situation in Middle East, almost any other fucking thing that is actually real and likely to come up while I'm overseas representing the United States Government? That was some grade A bullshit for real.

Naturally I am angry with myself for just now thinking, 'wait a minute...that was completely bullshit.' I'm primarily angry with myself for even trying to answer those questions instead of politely shutting it down and insisting we move on to something that mattered. I would have been far less annoyed with myself for getting lit up over being hostile in a foreign language than just not being able to answer a question because I haven't thought to develop the vocabulary to discuss the history of slavery in America.

*This* is why I'm increasingly militant--believe or not, I reflexively go with the flow and generally defer to authority, especially when I have no clue what is going on. But when people are assholes, and I have an epiphany much like the one I'm having now, the next time I encounter similar bullshit, my anger at myself and my anger at whatever dick-shit circumstance a current one reminds me of come together to form the 'fuck you' attitude I bring to something that out of context just seems unnecessarily hostile and angry. You know, like when I don't fucking speak some bullshit language and I'm just trying to keep up and make sure I'm paying attention to the verb and tenses and not taking the time after 'Oh shit she just asked me about animal rights, WTF' to think 'What the fuck do animal rights have to do with shit I've done or will ever be doing on behalf of the United States? I don't work for PETA. I totally shouldn't answer this question.' Bull-fucking-shit. People are dicks.