Already not funny, right? It hasn't been funny here either. The badness of this week is near comedic. I am nursing a headache which will only resolve once I close my eyes and yield. I got 99 problems and a boy is one of them. But not really. He's more of an annoyance because he's not who I want him to be. It's not his fault and I don't feel like being the woman who trains him for another woman. What do they say, a man meets a woman and hopes she'll never change and a woman meets a man an tries to change him? He needs too much work. Best to start over. Earlier this week, the transmission in my work car crapped out and a co-worker replied to all on an e-mail I blind copied him on. As Homer Simpson would say, the lesson here is never try.
I love my sister but her new schedule is killing me. I have no space in this house without her. Now she is getting ready in the morning at the same time I am so if I need a shower I have to beat her to it or wait until more hot water is heated. When I come home, she is already camped in front of the tv and has made the mess in the kitchen I will later clean. She easily watches 5 hours of television a night. Having a private conversation is impossible and having boys over...ah shit, she just walked back in. Even her walks are short now. I am over winter, over headaches, over boys, and over roommates. I want to have nice things and not fear destruction by Ashley or feel bad because my would-be-boyfriend doesn't have two dimes to rub together. Why do I own the repercussions of other people's choices? I didn't chose to be evicted but I have a roommate who just busted ass on my couch. I didn't chose to return to college in my mid-thirties for the undergrad I never finished but I feel bad for letting him buy me a drink because I know I make more money. Makes me miss the guy who always tells me exactly what's on his mind even though it is always sex.
Him: Hi. What are you up to?
Me: Hey there! How was your day?
Him: Great, got a promotion. Everything is going great. Looking for a house to buy. Can I come over?
Me: That's wonderful! Congrats on the house. So glad to hear things are going well.
Him: Thanks! So, can I come over?
Me: I don't think that's a good idea.
Him: I think you think too much. So does that mean I can't come over tonight?
Not romantic but persistent. Sometimes a girl goes with the guy who simply shows up, who unambiguously wants her. Who unambiguously doesn't want to be her boyfriend and will never confuse her about his intentions. Sure it's not what she wants really but it DOES resemble what she wants; clear communication, clear intent.
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Well, he delivered his message and you received it!
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