Reciprocity

You like me! You really, really like me!

This week has been tough and today especially was tough. My head hurts and my nose is raw from all the crying I did. Last day for the boss and I woke up this morning thinking ugh, I can't to this. I'm miserable already. Tomorrow I will get up and think, ugh, I can't do this. This is too much. He's not going to burst through the door, we're not going to make each other laugh and he's not going to drive me crazy with random questions and random emergencies. I wished we had hung out more, had more than work between us because I feared I adored him more than he adored me. That he liked that I really enjoyed working for him but he wasn't all torn up about it. But he was and while I hated to know we were similarly miserable about not being able to work together, a part of me was relieved not to be the only one having a tough day. We hugged, we wrote each other goodbye e-mails at work, wrote another good bye email tonight and hope we can reconstitute the team again someday. Just a year ago, I was disappointed to have to continue working here because I felt it was time to move on. I remember asking my boss if he thought our boss would support me leaving sooner and his answer was simply no. I would have never guessed I would be sitting here a year and half later, dehydrated from crying over his departure. What a guy. I'm super fortunate. Last year I complained that God was blocking my shots but I now appreciate that I needed to stay at least for this. Totally worth it. What. a. guy.