Karma

I'm pretty sure I've addressed my theory on poo karma at some point in this highly intellectual blog. But for those who are new or simply have not committed my blog posts to memory (please work on that), poo karma is my theory that those who do not pick up their poop are destined to step in it. Because I have a persnickety dog, who won't go just anywhere, I am daily walking through the mine fields of grass and in all our years of walking, at least twice a day, everyday for 7 years, have rarely ruined a shoe. Yay for me but hardly the point.

I got a lovely card from my former neighbor and sometimes friend for my birthday that said we were indeed blessed to have stumbled upon eachother and then referred to karma, letting me know she was not referring to the poo kind. Which made me think perhaps it was karma. The reason I call her my former neighbor and sometimes friend is that she will completely dip out for months at a time. She won't return phone calls, respond to e-mails or text messages. You'll be dead to her. It hurts my feelings and kind of pisses me off. She used to do this when I still lived there too but because we could literally see eachother come and go if we were so inclined, the freeze outs would not last any longer than 3-4 weeks. The irony is that I've lived around her and had a chance to know her in person longer than any other friend I've had in my entire life. And she's done some tremendous things for me. But there's just something in her that is always avoiding me getting to know who she actually is.

Which brings me back to karma. Her card got me thinking about where I fit in the constellation of my friend's other friends. She's my bad friend; the one whose actions are not always congruent with how they say they feel about me. To gush about how much you miss me and how sad you are that I'm gone but still manage to average 3 months to return a phone call does not compute for me. Perhaps in the same way I can miss my best friend and honestly desire to see her and meet her children but have not yet done it. So perhaps it is karma, getting back some of the stuff others have put with from me. Either way, her card provoked me to consider how her friendship makes me feel sometimes and how I might be more sensitive to how I communicate with both my actions and words about how important my friends are are to me.