I read T.S. Elliot on the way home from work on my phone and was grateful that he wrote. I am grateful my sister is taking after a bear in the winter and has eaten and retired to her bed. Part of reason I have not posted as often is most nights I come home she is sprawled lengthwise across the couch watching Judge Judy, Judge Joe Brown, and Family Feud. I can't think over the parade of hot messes suing and counter-suing each other and whether the Smith family will be able to answer for the steal and have their chance at 20 thousand dollars. It just sucks you right in. That's how the lowest common denominator works.
Another frustrating day at work. The enemy within is likely the single biggest obstacle to mission accomplishment. These aren't the moles or the saboteurs, these are the people who don't understand their fundamental role in their organization. If you are a lawyer, your job is not to torpedo, your job is to facilitate. There are so many obstacles and risks inherent in the work, why would you pile on with indifference or incompetence? Go work somewhere else, please. My rage against the machine aside, I also had an epiphany about why I am so down of late. I'm icing. I make things better but I am not necessary. Sure it's not the same without icing but it's still cake. It will work. Like a hamburger without a bun. If you had to do without something, you'd do without the icing or the bun, hell, I scrape icing off of cakes and often eat only one half of the bun, mostly to catch all the mess.
So I'm icing. Awesome. I suppose there are worse things than being unnecessary but it's still not a good feeling. I can't think of a single place that icing isn't superfluous. Which means even if I quit this job, I'll keep confronting my lack of inherent substantive qualities. Except for maybe in a bakery. So I just need to riddle myself what the non-bakery professional equivalent of a bakery is and I'll be all set to start my new life somewhere that I matter. Somewhere I actually hold things together and don't just make things sweeter.
4 comments:
We're all icing.
And the enemy within is likely the single biggest obstacle to mission accomplishment.
Icing is awesome, and not only makes things sweeter. Its that last flavor you take with you when the cake's long done.
Lodo, you might the only one to make me feel good about being icing. You're awesome.
Right back at you Ava. The cake exists to create the platform on which the icing performs.
Much like art, we can live w/out the icing, but that spongy cake ain't much fun or inspiring w/out it.
You almost make me want to be icing. You almost make me think other people wish they weren't cake.
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