Oh blog how I have missed you!

*insert kissy noises here*

I don't know how long it's been but it wasn't a good time to launch into a multi-part story (which evolves still) about my unhealthy relationship with work. I will surely return to that story at some point in a rage-filled spill of words. When I thought about how long I'd been away and how I was in the middle of an emotional diatribe about everything wrong with my job and my boss, I had an epiphany about why the news always sends people out in the middle of severe weather to describe it. Because it's easier to describe a storm you're in than a storm that has passed. Seeing a person's umbrella turned inside out or seeing the snow pile up on their jacket, that's more authentic than an anecdote from someone inside. Since my last post I have actually said the words 'We need to have a talk about boundaries' to my boss, I have written a post still in draft titled 'Boundaries,' and I have purchased tickets to accompany my boss and his wife to a Halloween party where it is possible we will be the oldest people there. It's a work in progress, this boundaries thing.

I have also joined the ranks of the smartphone users and now understand why people talk about the Droid with messianic reverence. Apple can have the iPhone (and AT&T) (she said as she typed on her Mac). Droid makes me happy.

I've been thinking of what my father said to me a while back about me elevating the humanity of everywhere I work. Perhaps it is a cheap coping mechanism but being helpful and dependable and resourceful for the people I work with makes me proud even if the douche bags are incapable or unwilling to formally or even informally recognize it. I lament and complain and sometimes resent being the first-stop shop for both my bosses and my co-workers (and some people I don't even know referred by others), but I also like being that go-to person. I get annoyed when I feel taken for granted or advantage. And in this job I feel both. More on that later perhaps.

I have seen 2 friends repeatedly this year but I have not seen anyone outside of the Eastern seaboard this year. I have not been on a plane. I think my other friends need to move. Trains are so much better and require much less planning ahead. It's much harder to be away from work when I have so much less to show for the time I am there. It has been a very uneven year with unprecedented demands on my time. I hope this is like my last year in Washington which was low and dark with an amazing finish. Got low and dark covered, time for some amazing.