The Easter Bunny is Satan's messenger

I officially hate April. Wish Ashley had been born some other month so I could hate the entire month without exception.

It doesn't seem to be fair, that life marches on even while yours stands still. Maybe I will be furloughed next week, maybe I will be important enough to stay on. Just got a call from my boss, I'm on on the furlough list. Can't go to work even if I want to. Awesome. What the fuck ever. I've refused to follow the discussion because it despairs me and I've had enough of that. I will say the consideration of a government shutdown makes me feel like I don't live in a superpower. I feel like I live in a developing nation that doesn't have its shit together. A nation that can be hijacked by idiots more enchanted by the David and Goliath scenario of being a minority that cripples the bad ol government that ironically employs them as well than they are with pragmatic forward looking solutions. Wonder how much the exercise of shutting down the government is costing. Wonder how much the uncertainty of a paycheck slows spending which in turn slow the economy. Just wonder how long this season in politics will last. Makes me sick.

Feeling somewhat out of the woods or at least not as deep and lost as we were, I feel the adage from a few posts ago, danger survived was never really dangerous, creeping into our thinking. We were emphatic on Monday that we were holding a family intervention to convince my mom to retire early. Today my dad backed off remarking she could do whatever she wanted. My girlfriend's husband was laid off, a girlfriend of mine just had surgery to remove breast tumors, my mother is critical but stable, I don't know if I will be able to go to work next week to try to dig out from this week, and I think the guy next door to us is dying. Nevermind the bigger world, earthquakes, Libya, whatever else is going on outside of my little universe. I want to cave into myself right now. I want to cry. But it doesn't help anything so I will nut up and look for the upside in this shit storm.